This is baby Ruvy & me, my first and last post about her. No, she didn't die, she's a very healthy, energetic, sweet, beautiful, gorgeous, playful and smart kitten but I had to make a difficult decision of letting her go. At this moment, we're supposed to be in bed, getting cosy and cuddling. I am missing her so much. I miss caressing her head, nose, fur and paws which she loved so much and made her purr so loud non-stop and fell asleep eventually. I miss her being clingy on me when we're in bed, she comes near my chest and lay down in there as if like I was her real mother. I miss watching youtube and some tom & jerry with her. I miss your loud purrs and roaming around my room like a rat and dog. I miss feeding her, I miss everything about her. What a great feeling I had during those very short yet irreplaceable and precious moments. It's priceless, no material things or anything can compare to those feelings. Now understood more how great it is for a new mom to give birth. I know its a cat, an animal and not a human being, but if you're there at that moment, you would feel it.
However, some things just don't work the way you wanted, no matter how much you want it so bad. You have put in the extra effort and determination to have it, but sometimes, things are either not meant to be or maybe God's way of saying, it's not the right time yet. Just like in a relationship or a goal, no matter how much time and effort you do to make it work, some complications will arise to destroy everything you have gained because if it's not meant to be, it will not be.
Just like when I had Ruvy, it was a very long process and waiting, I almost didn't get her because of so many hindrances that I almost gave up but I still tried until I finally got her. Yes, that's me, I'll do everything to get what I want despite the obstacles along the way. The first time I went to pick her up in the shelter, it was raining hard, no car and just public transport for more than an hour and some walking, it was my very first time to come to that area. I thought to myself, should I still go? it's raining heavily, it would be hard for me to take her home and I didn't want her to get wet.